I'm Still Here

so it's been over a week since my last posting and i think i was feeling a little discouraged about my BGL... i'll post my numbers for the week at the end of this post... it seems that after the july 4th holiday, i really was not feeling good.. i ended up with lower back spasms for a few days, then i had a neck/shoulder spasm on the left side for a few days (possibly because of how i was moving to compensate for the back spasm... then a middle back spasm... lol... it was not good... last week wednesday i had to use one of those riding carts to get around a store because i couldn't stand up straight and at the time i remember thinking, "this is why those people walk like this with a forward lean"... lol... anyway, the next day i had to use a cane... but by friday i was walking fairly straight with minimal pain... then saturday evening the neck spasm started and lasted a couple of days... i now know for SURE that eating red meat that is not organic is absolutely NOT worth it... i don't seem to have problems with organic red meat like that... but every time i've had the "bad" red meat, i end up with inflammation and pain somewhere in my body... ok... so here are my stats for the days i didn't post:

Date BP P BGL
7-09-09 143/90 80 190 (145 before bed)
7-10-09 130/82 72 178
7-11-09 131/83 83 185
7-12-09 126/81 76 173
7-13-09 132/83 69 169
7-14-09 135/88 72 161
7-15-09 117/76 70 173
7-16-09 117/74 70 159

my bgl is coming down again... i pray i continue to do what i'm doing... i feel good today and happy that i'm not craving any junk... :)

July 4th Saga - Falling Off The Wagon

ok... so i did my 30 days and the plan is to keep going... but the 4th of july got in the way :( ... i'm not making excuses.... but i AM human, so i'm just documenting what happened... my sister came in to town and i'd promised her, two months ago, that when she came i'd COOK for her... specifically i'd cook her some beef ribs for the 4th... she held me to that promise and i kept it... had a few people over and made an event of it... i decided to still continue with my green smoothies in the mornings and i did a lot of raw, BUT i also ate the regular cooked food... so if being 80% raw is equivalent to being in rehab, then the 4th of july is like falling off the wagon... and i don't think i just fell off --- i JUMPED off... had a good weekend though... but NOW??? my BP and BGL are back up... this morning, 136/89 and 218 respectively with a resting pulse of 73... it didn't help that last night, for the second night in a row, i ate a PINT of coconut milk ice cream... AND my back is spasming... so i'm back on track today... back to what i know i need to do... and now that i've gotten used to 100% raw breakfasts and lunches, i'm ready to begin my next change... i'm going to attempt to start going to bed earlier... don't laugh, but i need to be IN my bed by midnight... i need to write it to make it a real commitment to change... i'm also going to try to incorporate at least 10 minutes of serious exercise 3 times a week into my schedule... once again, don't laugh... i need to start at a pace that i can maintain indefinitely so that it can become a part of my lifestyle... all throughout my off the wagon weekend, i still ate 100% raw breakfasts and only on saturday was my lunch NOT a 100% raw... so this is now a HABIT for me and i'm glad, because as bad as it was, it could have been worse... i have no more pints of raw frozen desserts in my freezer, so i won't binge on them... i just need to not bring them home... we shall see how i fare on that... anyway, enough of this... i have to do what i have to do...

There's No Stopping Me Now

i made it!!... 30 days... and this morning i woke up and knew that i needed to record some measurements... with that said, i'm happy to announce that 14.5 "prisoners" have been released from my domain... they are collectively and generally referred to as "Fat Pounds"... with good behavior they will remain free to roam the universe and, as attached as we once were, i pray that i NEVER see them again!!... my BP was 121/69 and P 75... BGL 196... i'm not happy about this number, but it is still considerably lower than it was 30 days ago... (about 78 points lower than my day one measurement!!)... it goes down during the day, but i really want my morning measurement to be normal... i believe that if i continue on this journey, it will happen... W today was 359.5... i was laughing this morning as i headed off to work thinking that perspective is everything... i was ecstatic to see the 350's again... lol... almost giddy with excitement... and who in there right mind is HAPPY to be 359.5 pounds???... easy answer... ANYONE who's ever been at 360 or heavier... lol... my FAT measurement is still "E4"... an error because i apparently have too much fat to measure... but my BMI is now 54.7 ... if that means anything, i've dropped 2.2 points on the BMI scale... so, i'm not where i want to be, but i'm also not where i used to be :)... i've taken the first few steps of my journey and i'm feeling good...